I’ve had Bell’s palsy for over four months now and I have been pretty successful lately at pretending that I don’t have BP. I’ve gotten really good at avoiding mirrors and not smiling too big. Without even thinking, I cover my mouth when I laugh too hard. If my eye feels dry, I automatically blink it by hand so quickly that most people would never notice. I have enjoyed enough recovery that I don’t feel the incessant need to explain my situation to absolutely everyone I encounter AND I can actually drink coffee without a straw. :) This has been a nice break. Now, it hasn’t been all rainbows, lollipops and sharpei puppies but last month I had about three weeks of steady (although slow) recovery, no twitching, and very little pain.
Until last week.
Last week the stupid Bell’s palsy gods decided that I have had it too easy of late. Apparently they thought they needed to smack me around a little. Those little suckers decided that I needed to feel like someone snuck into my bedroom while I was sleeping, twisted my head into an un-natural position, punched me in the face and then drugged me enough so that the next morning I would wake up lookin’ for the truck that must’ve hit me. (I haven’t felt that way since college btw) Okay, maybe I am exaggerating a bit. To be truthful, I only feel like that on my RIGHT side.
In all seriousness, my neck hurts. It only hurts on the BP side. It feels like a combo of slept-the-wrong-way-on-too-many-pillows and not-my-fault-car-accident-whiplash, which is an annoying, but not debilitating, combo. I am telling myself that it is a good sign. So far I am believing myself, but I am beginning to have my doubts. Afterall, I also tell myself that I am not too old to wear skinny jeans and that is an obvious falsehood. Nevertheless, most of my best facial improvements have been preceded by twitches, pain and soreness. So, I am hoping that this pain is just part of the process…and at least the left side feels good :).
Well crap. I thought I had it all figured out. Curse you Bell palsy gods! BP is sure a pain in the neck… literally and figuratively.